Major, Major Freakout Today

Ok, so I just about had a meltdown today. But I will go into that in a minute.

First, I had my normal doctor's appointment today. It went well - I heard the baby's heartbeat on Doppler for the first time! It was 138 bpm. Sounds good to me. At the end of my appointment the doctor said, "Jasmine I need to ask you a question." She said it really seriously, and I felt like I do when someone says, "We need to talk.". I just said, "yeah?" And she said, "You have seemed really unhappy this entire pregnancy, what's going on?". I just about had a big laugh and sigh of relief - oh good, it was wasn't something too serious or dreadful! At least for me, haha. I just said I'm stressed, I lost my job, I've been sick, etc. Things have been tough. I really don't want to go into detail with my doctor about my personal life - so I basically just chalked it up to losing my job and kept it light.

So anyway, I have been feeling the baby move! Just about every night for 2 weeks now, and sometimes during the day. So that is all good.

So now, here is my complete freakout for today. After my doctor's appointment I went home, and did my normal things. Then I glanced over at the paperwork I'd brought home from my doctor's office, and I noticed that I'd somehow ended up with a paper that I don't think they usually give to the patients. So I looked it over, and at the bottom I noticed right away that it said "Fetal Abnormality Suspected." My heart almost stopped. I didn't know what to do - Brandon was at the dentist. I kept going over it in my head - the doctor didn't say anything about there being a problem - wouldn't she have said something if there was? The nurses didn't say anything, everybody seemed to be acting completely normal. And so I thought back to my ultrasound - the doctor gave no indication there was anything wrong and just said he would write up the report for my normal doctor, who I'd be seeing in 3 weeks. She did say today that she hadn't gone over the report yet, so maybe there was something wrong and she just didn't/doesn't know about it yet? So, I finally called the office and explained exactly what happened to the lady who answered (that I had taken a wrong paper, and it said there was a fetal abnormality suspected). She said it sounded like it might be a billable code or something, and that she completely understood why I was upset. She said she'd contact the main nurse in my doctor's office and the doctor and/or nurse would get back to me. So they still haven't called yet, but in the meantime I started googling "655.43 Fetal Abnormality Suspected", and I found online that it IS a billable code that they use to get reimbursed or something and the details are that it has to do with a fetal damage due to a disease in the mother, such as toxoplasmosis, listeriosis, or alcohol addiction. That makes me feel SO much better, because maybe it just has to do with the blood test I took for toxoplasmosis? And she definitely told me that was negative, so I'm feeling much better. They still haven't called me back, so it could be something worse, but the fact that the doctor said nothing about anything being wrong, and that code has to do with something I was worried about previously - it definitely puts my mind at ease a little more.

So that was my freakout. By the time Brandon got home and I told him about it (I still was worried sick), he just told me to calm down and he was sure the baby is fine. So now, I think he's probably right :) At least, I hope so.